Tuesday, September 30, 2003

Is this our last Chance
to say all we have to say
hiding here inside ourselves
we live our lives afraid
so close your eyes and just beleive
in everything your told
cause in this land of mass confusion
its easy to give up control
Strange World
people talk and tell me lies
Strange World
People kill an eye for an eye
Strange World
Dream one day will see the light
Strange World
Believe and everything will be alright
This is the place
where everything begins and ends again
No secrets left to find the seven deadly sins
This world that we have wasted
has kept us very well
When science now is sacred
who will save us from ourselves
Strange World
people talk and tell me lies
Strange World
People kill an eye for an eye
Strange World
dream one day will see the light
Strange World
Believe and everything will be alright
Strange World
People talk sometimes I wonder why
Stange World
burn these thoughtless tears out of my eyes

Friday, September 26, 2003

Finally! Friday is here, and I am off to the Airport to fly to San Francisco for the Folsom Street Fair weekend. Been a really rough week here, and I am MORE than ready to cut loose and enjoy my freinds, party and fetish! Look for me at the fair if you are going....look for the pictures afterwards if you are not! WHEEEEE!

Sunday, September 21, 2003

electronic Bliss... Ok, we can cross the Pocket PC off my wish list now. I managed to revive mine and it is all working even better than before now. Guess I am really a geek afterall! Funny how reliant one can become on a piece of electronics. I had burned out the mother board somehow, and after getting a replacement, I was able to put it all back together and reload the operating system and all the software! The little things make me happy! Now I can listen to mp3's while a log my workout again! ...and Talk about a 'little black book"!! - with the Folsom street fair only 5 days away, I will certainly make use of it!

Friday, September 19, 2003

Wish List: ( feelin materialistic!)

1. Canon EOS Digital Rebel camera - a fantastic pro quality SLR digital cam.
2. New Compaq Ipaq Tablet PC - half PDA, half notebook with wireless celluar card
3. New HP graphics workstation computer with 19" plasma screen monitor
3. Pocket PC phone
4. New ADS Speakers and Sub for my Z3
5. Shoppin Spree at Bachrachs

...guess I better stop now!

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

Music is the reason... looking for a viable method of posting and exchanging music files. If anyone has any good ideas or plug in programs to share, let me know. I want to be able to let anyone upload an MP3 file to a database, and download as well. That way I can share my current music as well receive files easier than email. (also looking to create a stand alone page I can load and listen to files at work.) Hopefully there is a service out there I can use.

Sunday, September 14, 2003

Welcome to my head....the Chris Cox song keeps spinning in my head! I guess I have listened to it too much today! Finally got the site updated. A couple of hot buddies in Minneapolis sent me pics of themselves having some balloon fun. I posted the pics both to the Bticket and one on my updated buddies page. I always enjoy it when someone tells me they have tried kinky stuff with balloons after looking at my site. These guys sent pictures! WOOF! I also updated a few other galleries and added a solo session of myself in my sling. GRIN! I have tried posting some of the current MP3s I am listening to here on the blog. I hope it works for everyone. Off to the gym....Folsom is only two weeks away! WOO HOO!!!

Friday, September 12, 2003

Yesterday was Patriot Day in honor and rememberance of the world trade center tragedy 2 years ago. I wore red white and blue in respect for all those who died. However, It made me think about how successful the terrorist were at striking terror into our lives. Everything changed after 9/11/01. As americans we have always been complacent in our daily rituals and safety. Terrorism changes all that. Now everything seems based on the fear of what could happen. Some measures seem extreme, and some are incredibly lax. The one thing the event did for us as a country is to bring a common focus on each other, and a pride in our country. I stopped my last blog the day after 9/11. It had an unexplainable profound impact on me. I try not to take things for granted quite as much anymore, but refuse to live my life in fear. My heart goes out to those who lost lives and loves in the attack.

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

Where does time go??? For those who follow the bticket, I havent forgotten you. I appreciate all my subscribers, and have some great new stuff to post, I just have been very pressed for time lately. This past weekend I got the chance to shoot four of my fellow porn stars in some very interesting balloon play for the site. Hopefully this coming weekend I will get the time to edit and post some of those pictures. I also have solo series of myself enjoying leather play in a sling to post. I also have some new things to add to the general site. I am planning to add a music rotation list of what I am currently listening to that folks can click on and hear for themselves. Not sure how I am going to accomplish this yet, but seems like a good idea. I do all my site work myself, and it is completely hand coded. Several folks have asked what program I use to design my site. Notepad. Not to toot my own horn, but this question raises a peeve of mine. Design is something that comes from a persons abilities and creative imagination...not from a program. I get this so much at work, people think that buying a particular program is going to make them able to do spectacular things. Not so...the program is just a tool. Bad design is still bad design, no matter how slick. Ok, back off my high horse....

Tuesday, September 09, 2003

10 years here in Arizona this week....hard to beleive! Last night I was reminded why I moved here, when the clouds gathered at sunset prior to a monsoon. Absolutely spectacular. That is the best way to describe the desert. Spectacular to the extremes. Never before I have seen clouds so many shades of blues and purples until I moved here. At sunset you can add the golds,oranges and reds of the sun to the cloud colors as well as the bright red, rust and browns of the mountains. Yes, I still love it here, Beautiful sunny days and warm balmy evenings. I became a sun worshiper after moving here, everyday you wake to sunshine, everyday the weather report is the same, clear and sunny. Yes it is hot, but you learn to respect the sun. You learn to respect that leather seats and shorts dont mix in 115 degree heat. You learn that you can get second degree burns just sitting in the summer sun, much less stroke from a month of days over 100 degrees. You begin to long for a cloudy day. Then the monsoons hit! WOW, what a show, of clouds and wind and rain. Not just rain but water that POURS out of the sky, instantly flooding the desert. I open all the windows to listen and smell the rain. It is glorious. Soon the sun will return, and monsoon season will be over. But when everyone else is shoveling snow and taking 10 minutes to prepare to go outside... will be drinking margaritas on my patio in the balmy breeze...yeap I still love it here.